it was simple yet great... juz spending time wif the loved ones is enough...
dad wanted to bring me out for dinner, but since im going out wif amin. he bought mac for lunch... and he's one sotong.. doesnt even noe wat to buy... he's the kind who cant live without mum, he wont noe wat to do.
spending the birthday wif him is juz sweet.. all the expenditure.. all the pamperness.. dang.. i really love him loads...
the watch, limited edition funshine and roses are from him. the bvlgari necklace is from irsyad... and the funny looking toy is from ibu.... its freaking cute, the way it dance wen u press the 'press me button'.. haha... i was simple laughing my ass off.
nyp credited sum money to my ac... and im still wondering y they did tat.. i've left dem since may, and erm... its not a small sum of money.. oh well, dump it all into my savings ac. save save save money, i wanna get married :p
hey abang, happy 1 year...
soonn.. 10 more mins. hell, i dun tink anybody read dis blog anymore. but who cares, im juz gonna blog.
im tired, i wanna sleep... 10 more mins.
he brought up a subject, sth which i've been trying to brush away from the mind and heart. sth which i keep comparing in silence yet doesnt hurt me. seriously, wat can i do if he's not the same? its juz sth which i gotta accept. its part of loving sum1.. accepting the good and bad. even i wish, it was similar to her.. roses all the time.. pics.. surprises.. gifts.. late night convo.. juz simply romantic.
im really gonna be alryte, i've brush it away for a year ++, i can still do it. smile and smile.. the heart will slowly curl up into a smile too.
its gonna be a better year... it will be a happy year.
Happy Birthday yani.
exam is over.. 2 more weeks to results, sux.. i hate the nervous feeling.
its getting complicated each day, i wonder.. am i tat important anymore? am i to u? we decided on going out, yet last minute it was cancelled.. and for all i noe, u did went out but without me. is it right for me to sulk? or shd i juz keep dis bursting feeling deep in the heart?
i wished to blog abt kak ikin and her boyfie, yet i cant find the happy and loving feeling ryte now..
its juz full of grief.. i hate december. i wish my bday isnt dis month.
its 1.30am in the morn, and i juz finished my assignment. its due 2mrw 11am, and it feels relieve to submit it already.
im freaking exhausted.... yday prac exam. get zero.. cant do a thing, stuck there for 3 hrs.. the moment i left the place, tears rolled down.. its juz a feeling of helplessness and angryness... u juz wish theres sth u can do abt it, but its all too late. haiz.. im prepared to retake the module if need be..
after exam, rushed to work... wasnt in the mood at all for work, juz wish i could drown sumwhere... but i gotta be strong and move on. i have to work, i got bills to settle, and debts to be paid.
it juz sux, the feeling of giving up is starting to sink in.. but im trying my bez to hang on and keep moving forward. i have to let tat disappointment go, im still letting it go.. the tot of it everytime juz kills..
i dunno if i can do dis... but im not giving up..
god, plz give me the strength to go thru all dis. plz give me sum courage.. let me clear the 5 modules... please..
already 2040hr, but im still in sch lib doing my work... dang... im super exhausted. i wonder wat time the lib here close, but i doubt it close.. coz its still as pack as b4.. dotz...
i wish i have a vehicle or i stay in halls, i dread going home at dis time.... coz i juz wanna lie down and sleep..
had 2 meetings juz now... thank god, we finish the script and trial run. meeting dem on sat in the morn to finish up the script... and finished my presentation slides... next week presentation!
dis fri is maths quiz.. shitty... did the supp qns.... not ez. lucky theres forum to help out. ohh... my eyes juz wanna close.
ok, am tired.... wanna go peee and chiows. take care ppl
had a super tiring weekend... thank god, we rent the car.. dang! i forget to take pics wif the car...
its a chevrolet optra, super big car... i dun like.. the butt too long!! anyway... i became sayang driver... send him and pick him up from sch. tho i make him drive, wenever he's in the car. but its great... getting lost alone at nyte... talking on the phone while driving(tho its against the law..) only did tat coz i got lost... need him to tell me the way. but other den tat its great.
its angahs marriage last weekend. hectic..... went home super late.. and wake up super early..
went to buddhist lodge to take my bursary too... thank god, amin was arnd... or i'll juz die... super bored! so of course, we camwhore!
wee.... weekend is over, and i havnt even done any of my work! haiz... irritating.. dis week, i have to visit the school museum, theres an assignment on tat. haiz... can sumbody plz accompany me...
im supposed to be sleeping right now... was listening to the webcast. Bio.. they had a change in the lecturer.. hearing his voice makes me sleepy... its juz irritating! dang, i wish they didnt change the lecturer..
its fri!!!! means, im gonnnna driiiiiiive later! yipppe!!! i cant wait! i cant wait!
accompanied him to study for his exam. i dun understand y nurses have to learn statistics and hypothesis? remind me of tat rotten apple teacher back in poly... she was the one who taught us tat in maths. and they have to moderate our mid term coz we sux badly.. haha
i wanna study, but im super sleepy. working cb opening 2mrw. for 4 hours? its really a waste of time. im supposed to work till 5pm, but a colleague wanna change.. coz he wanna work longer den me. so 2mrw im finishing at 3pm. but ok la.. means, can teman ayang go take car oso..
im really hungry... i guess, i need to go out and grab a bite.. can feel gastric juices le....
anyway, good luck darling for your exam 2mrw! hugz...
p/s: hope im not kept in the dark.... at least i noe wats going on.
