exam is over.. 2 more weeks to results, sux.. i hate the nervous feeling.
its getting complicated each day, i wonder.. am i tat important anymore? am i to u? we decided on going out, yet last minute it was cancelled.. and for all i noe, u did went out but without me. is it right for me to sulk? or shd i juz keep dis bursting feeling deep in the heart?
i wished to blog abt kak ikin and her boyfie, yet i cant find the happy and loving feeling ryte now..
its juz full of grief.. i hate december. i wish my bday isnt dis month.
its 1.30am in the morn, and i juz finished my assignment. its due 2mrw 11am, and it feels relieve to submit it already.
im freaking exhausted.... yday prac exam. get zero.. cant do a thing, stuck there for 3 hrs.. the moment i left the place, tears rolled down.. its juz a feeling of helplessness and angryness... u juz wish theres sth u can do abt it, but its all too late. haiz.. im prepared to retake the module if need be..
after exam, rushed to work... wasnt in the mood at all for work, juz wish i could drown sumwhere... but i gotta be strong and move on. i have to work, i got bills to settle, and debts to be paid.
it juz sux, the feeling of giving up is starting to sink in.. but im trying my bez to hang on and keep moving forward. i have to let tat disappointment go, im still letting it go.. the tot of it everytime juz kills..
i dunno if i can do dis... but im not giving up..
god, plz give me the strength to go thru all dis. plz give me sum courage.. let me clear the 5 modules... please..
already 2040hr, but im still in sch lib doing my work... dang... im super exhausted. i wonder wat time the lib here close, but i doubt it close.. coz its still as pack as b4.. dotz...
i wish i have a vehicle or i stay in halls, i dread going home at dis time.... coz i juz wanna lie down and sleep..
had 2 meetings juz now... thank god, we finish the script and trial run. meeting dem on sat in the morn to finish up the script... and finished my presentation slides... next week presentation!
dis fri is maths quiz.. shitty... did the supp qns.... not ez. lucky theres forum to help out. ohh... my eyes juz wanna close.
ok, am tired.... wanna go peee and chiows. take care ppl
had a super tiring weekend... thank god, we rent the car.. dang! i forget to take pics wif the car...
its a chevrolet optra, super big car... i dun like.. the butt too long!! anyway... i became sayang driver... send him and pick him up from sch. tho i make him drive, wenever he's in the car. but its great... getting lost alone at nyte... talking on the phone while driving(tho its against the law..) only did tat coz i got lost... need him to tell me the way. but other den tat its great.
its angahs marriage last weekend. hectic..... went home super late.. and wake up super early..
went to buddhist lodge to take my bursary too... thank god, amin was arnd... or i'll juz die... super bored! so of course, we camwhore!
wee.... weekend is over, and i havnt even done any of my work! haiz... irritating.. dis week, i have to visit the school museum, theres an assignment on tat. haiz... can sumbody plz accompany me...
im supposed to be sleeping right now... was listening to the webcast. Bio.. they had a change in the lecturer.. hearing his voice makes me sleepy... its juz irritating! dang, i wish they didnt change the lecturer..
its fri!!!! means, im gonnnna driiiiiiive later! yipppe!!! i cant wait! i cant wait!
accompanied him to study for his exam. i dun understand y nurses have to learn statistics and hypothesis? remind me of tat rotten apple teacher back in poly... she was the one who taught us tat in maths. and they have to moderate our mid term coz we sux badly.. haha
i wanna study, but im super sleepy. working cb opening 2mrw. for 4 hours? its really a waste of time. im supposed to work till 5pm, but a colleague wanna change.. coz he wanna work longer den me. so 2mrw im finishing at 3pm. but ok la.. means, can teman ayang go take car oso..
im really hungry... i guess, i need to go out and grab a bite.. can feel gastric juices le....
anyway, good luck darling for your exam 2mrw! hugz...
p/s: hope im not kept in the dark.... at least i noe wats going on.
its been super duper long... almost 4 months since i blog..
its 2 weeks past raya..... and im juz feeling as tired as ever. all my weekends are burn.. either working or events. dis coming weekend will be angah's marriage.... dang, another bz weekend.
waa.... theres so much to say, yet i dunno wat to say. lets juz start updating abt myself..
am in NUS ryte now. and im freaking stressed, thus i dun blog often.
am happy with Muhaymin Sopii. and wanna still be happy wif him till time stops (if god permits)
am trying my bez to spend more time wif family.
am loving my dearest cuzzies, tho we seldom meet up dis days(kak ikin on mc, nadia working ALL THE TIME, im bz wif sch.. and kak iqah is working too)
am hoping to find time to meet my cliques, to get zac prezzie ( its almost a month due)
am still working my ass off, to get more money to pay off my debts
am meeting wif fana often since our bf are always bz :D
there..... the summary......
sch sux to the max.... next month is exam time!! and i juz start sch 2 months ago... time really flies in uni..... its like, never ending. preparation after preparation.. to prepare for each modules takes time, assignments and wateva not... dang.. i cant wait to grad!
and it sux badly tat they dun ask me out anymore.... bcoz of 1 person, im out of the gang.... super weird. ohh well, its not ez to get true frenz! so basically dis year, i dun jalan raya wif any frenz... how sad.
on the brighter side, im meeting amin later. cant wait cant wait!! i juz miz him so much.
our raya pic.... i love dis pic so much..
dis is at esplanade area..
p/s: i promise to blog often! :D
i've yet to publish my pulau blading post.. i juz cant seem to find the time to finish tat post.... work is so irregular...and i've been working 7 days straight.... 2mrw working morn again... haiz... exhausted sey!
dis whole month gonna bee bzz! i've accepted the training job for the month, at mee toh.. teaching photoshop... and im still gonna work at gv + my tuition... and dis whole month, lotsa uni stuff to settle too.... 4 tests to take, sum registration and briefing to go to, health checkup, orientation, settling of tuition fees loan... and shit.. i have to start learning for my tests! dang dang dang...
anyway, its the forth yesterday.... watched transformers and ate pastamania! we saw along and abg shahreil in TM, they juz got back from eating pastamania. since my cuzzie is working there, we got a discount of 30%. tats good bargain, considering eating wif amin yday only cost abt 21bucks after the discount of a $9++. transformers was great! tho all of them look the same, i cant differentiate the fallen clan at all... dotz.. so moz of the time, i was figuring out who is who.. dumb me..
*im so getting lazy wif editing of pictures.. haiz..
u and me....
his seafood marinara..
my chix cheesy sausage.. spicy plzz...
loads of cheese and chilli flakes! yuum
i took the squirrel from work... and apparently he loves playing wif it..
after our date.... home sweet home..
simple yet a great date after 6 days of working.... wens the next, yang??
